its getting a little easier to think about bryan every single day. i no longer really long for him as much as i used to. i still think about what he might be up to, but i also think that maybe i should at least try to begin the detachment process which means.... probably not have his pictures up. there's a picture of him kissing me on the cheek and i can't even imagine it anymore. i dont want to imagine him kissing me, he doesn't deserve me.
you dont fucking deserve me. i hate that you played me like a fool.
you told me that you were different, even when you knew you weren't.
you put me on this emotional rollercoaster and you were laughing the whole way.
i hate that you are that kind of person, but most of all, i hate that my heart actually yearned for you.
you made me feel so small, so ugly... and even now you feel gorgeous and on top of the world.
well let me tell you something, even if things come easily for you, you will get yours.
someone will come in and take your heart and cradle it and you will be so scared because it's not in your hands anymore.
and then she or he will break it and you will be left on the bottom, wondering how you got there.
you are an ugly person inside, no matter how many people tell you how beautiful you are.
you make people feel so pretty and then take it all away because you know you can.
i never want to see you again. i never want to feel you again.
i hope you think of me and just remember me as a distant memory.
because you are dead to me.
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